I should be getting out the Christmas tree, but I really do not feel like it. Every year it is the same thing. I feel really “blah” about the holidays. I actually do not look forward to this time of year. I try to be good about it; smile and keep going on with the day-to-day in hopes of that feeling going away… but it never does. Still, I happily put up the tree and start thinking of ideas for the weeks ahead. Last year was probably the worst year because it was the beginning of my pregnancy and I was so tired and sick. I had stopped eating and could barely stay awake most days. This year I have two little ones that I love and I want to give them the type of holiday experience I remember. For Thanksgiving, I cooked the food, enjoyed it and just felt empty. I took less photos. I may have gotten a few when my daughter and I were playing around with my camera but that was about it. The family photo I wanted… didn’t happen. I just feel like I failed. It was hard enough staying in a good enough mood to cook, especially after only sleeping for 2 or 3 hours the night before. I am trying real hard… but that sinking feeling… it’s hard to push away.
Probably one of the better things I had a chance to do was scrapping a few of my Christmas photos from last year. Here are a few of the photos….
.jpg)
.jpg)
.jpg)
….. and here is the page I made with them….
.jpg)
To create this page, I used the following: Memory Pockets Monthy: Joy (December) – The Lilypad Designers (Allison Pennington, Designs by Lili, Sahlin Studio, Sara Gleason, Stolen Moments Design and Valorie Wibbens) | A Caroling We Go + Cut It Out: Joy – Valorie Wibbens | Pocket Full of Joy – Stolen Moments Design | Overjoyed :Patterns & Backgrounds – Allison Pennington | Arboretum {Joy} + Joy {papers} -Sara Gleason.
I was not sure how this would turn out once I was done but I do love the non-traditional Christmas colors.
Let me get up from here and get on with the getting on… :) Thanks for visiting and I hope you are enjoying your weekend!
Another beautiful layout featuring that beautiful daughter! Seeing her just makes me smile :D.
Check things out with your doctor – sounds like you have a case of the SAD’s. I get this way each year, as did my Mom before me. Since she’s been gone it has been worse the past 2 years, starting around mid-October. The only advice I can offer is to put on your favorite music, take a little time each day to decompress and/or journal your feelings, and smile while you make sure your family is happy. Hang in there and know that you’re not alone! ((((HUGS))))
You know, I used to write in a journal all of the time and it kind of stopped when I had my daughter. I did start again a few months ago but I haven’t wrote anything down in a few weeks. Taking time for myself is the challenge; I’ll have to find a way to change it up. Thank you for the advice and sharing with me. :)